I suppose that since most of our hurts come through relationships, so will our healing,
and I know that grace rarely makes sense for those looking in from the outside.

Sunday, April 03, 2011

Most Likely To

The Balyo RA's went on a retreat this weekend, and on Saturday night we sat around and played "Most Likely To."  We were all doubled over in laughter most of the night, so I thought I'd share a few of the (appropriate) things that my team voted me most likely to do.

On our team, Carrie is most likely to:
Shave her head.
Wear full body spandex in public.
Marry a millionaire.
Join the military.
Get in a fight with Oprah.
Live in a big city.
Openly gawk at someone attractive.
Go on a reality TV show.
Fall in love with a guy with an accent.
Shop in the wrong gender's clothing department.
Elope.
Eat off the floor.
Crash a wedding to meet cute guys.
Think something is fashionable when it definitely is not.
Get boo-ed off the stage at a talent show.
Fall asleep in class.
Snore in class.
Go to jail.

And that is what my team thinks of me.  Pretty accurate.  :)

Mood:  Laughing
Music:  "Tipsy"  J-Kwon

Snapshots of Mexico

It seems that on almost every trip I take, I become the self-appointed guardian of the quote book.  Spring Break Mexico was no exception.  This is not an all-inclusive list, as the quote book very narrowly avoided being washed away in our flooded tent, but these are definitely a few winners!

"I think they put crack in my hamburger!"  - Megan

"I have a friend who has a friend named . . . Billy."  - Ben

"I touch stuff that's been in China all the time."  - Ben

"So this one time when I was hunting with my uncle . . . "  - Ben

"And then my neighbor ran across the muddy field in his socks."  - Ben

"My uncle shot the nuts off a deer."  - Ben

"This cupcake is like Joel.  White on the outside, but black on the inside."  - Anon

"Did YOU expect there to be chocolate in them???" - Beau

"You've got the voice AND the body, Ben!"  - Karen

"There's someone out there for everyone!"  - Beau

"Thank you for being patient and understanding."  - Matthew/Gary

"Time to wake up!  The stars are shining!"  - JROTC

"Ok guys, you have a $5 limit."  - Natalie

"Suck it up princess!"  - All of the drivers/leaders

"You can blame it on me."  - Lucia

"Hey Carrie, Taco Bell???"  - Matt

"Woof woof!"  - Carrie

"Look!  A California girl!"  - Matt, Ben, and Kenji

"Megan, how do you feel about headbands and tool belts?"  - Matt

"Wear that Drew Ross!"  - Matt

I also realize that most of these won't make sense and/or be funny to anyone outside of our team, but hey, suck it up princess.



Mood:  Happy
Music:  "Show Me the Money"  Petey Pablo

Friday, April 01, 2011

Life is Good

To Do Tonight:
- Finish my Counseling II paper on the long-term effects of divorce on children.
- Do a case study on conflict and relationships.
- Do my math homework.
- Do laundry.
- Clean my room.


What I'm actually doing right now:  Blogging.  Hey, you just can't ignore it when inspiration strikes.


It's been a while since I've been able to say that "life is good" with much conviction in my voice, but tonight I am saying it confidently.  Four days ago, I got home from the most perfect spring break I could have imagined, and even though I know I'm still on a "spring break high," I'm gonna ride this wave as far as it will take me.  :)


In some of my recent musings (refer back to my previous blog post) I came to the solid conclusion that I am still very much an extrovert and that living in solitary confinement would definitely be one of the worst things I could imagine.  Spring break only solidified that conclusion.  From the time we drove out of our school parking lot on Friday morning, I spent the next ten days constantly surrounded by twenty-one other crazy, adventurous, Jesus-loving, funny, creative, and hard-working students as we spent our spring break serving a precious Mexican family.  I spent my days driving endless miles through California, pouring concrete, framing houses, and freezing at the beach, and I spent my nights laughing by the campfire, huddling in a flooding tent with Megan, and just generally being freakishly cold.  We had storytime with my friend Ben (aka, "Papa Hoppa") in the car and around the campfire (every story began with, "This one time when I was hunting with my uncle . . . "), we dried our clothes on sticks over the firepit (and watched lots of them catch on fire), we got addicted to ridiculous roadtrip songs (Friday), we nicknamed the camp next to us the "Jesus ROTC" when they woke up their kids by playing a trumpet at 0530, and we came home dirty, tired, smelly, and oh-so-happy.  This week was so much more refreshing and fulfilling for me than sitting at home sleeping and watching TV ever would have been.  I got to help show a family the love of Christ in a very practical and tangible way and I got to do it alongside some incredible people that brought so much joy to my life.  


Spring break is over though, and this week was the boot camp of papers, tests, and assignments.  Yet, I am still being encouraged by the relationships that were formed in the last two weeks, and I have definitely hit my annual after-spring-break-mode of not wanting the year to end.  


I graduate in thirty-five days, and all of my job options are falling through the cracks.  I have no employment prospects and no place to live.  The number of pages that I must write in the next thirty-five days is pretty astronomical.  But today I'm not even freaking out.  Just last night I read in Psalm 37, "Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn, your vindication like the noonday sun. Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him."  God has plans for me, and He knows me even better than I know myself.  Even just these last few weeks have been an exercise in seeing how God has been throwing things into my life when I least expect them, and I'm learning how to jump in and roll with it.  So today all I can do is work my hardest at the place where I am dwelling right now - as a student, as an RA, and as a friend.  


The unknown is a frightening place for my OCD little heart, but even though I have no idea what lies ahead I know that the Lord does and that He is not going to abandon me when May 7 hits.  So tonight, I am grateful.  Grateful for new friends.  Grateful for the blessing that my last three years here have been.  Grateful for the experiences I've been blessed with.  Grateful for peace in the midst of the unknown.




Mood:  Grateful
Music:  Sappy couples talking in the coffee shop