I suppose that since most of our hurts come through relationships, so will our healing,
and I know that grace rarely makes sense for those looking in from the outside.

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Anticipation!

There are so many things to look forward to right now, the three main ones being Christmas, snowboarding, and my baptism!

So yes, first off is Christmas. I can barely believe that Christmas Eve is TOMORROW! I'm purty excited, and I finally finished my wrapping tonight. I finished putting Alise's present together, nearly burned the house down, and got my parent's presents wrapped. Yeah! Mom is making manicotti for our "Christmas Eve Dinner" tomorrow night... which is going to be way too quiet, formal, and boring, seeing as it's just going to be my parents and me. After dinner, we'll open presents, one at a time, neatly throw away the wrapping paper, and politely thank each other, WAY TOO QUIETLY! I much prefer having all thirteen members of my family here, screaming and yelling like wild banshees, ripping into presents, and having paper flying through the air. But Dick and Christina will be at Dick's parent's house tomorrow night, and Joe and Carol are in Cali. We'll all be together on the 30th though, and I'm pretty stoked about that.

And speaking of my large family, Joe and Carol announced on Wednesday night that they're expecting again in July!! Yes, that means that I'll be aunt Carrie to SEVEN nieces and nephews! Sheesh, I just got used to saying that I had SIX! But of course I'm very excited, and I really really hope that they have a boy. Having a little Ben running around would be too cool.

The day after Christmas, Tuesday, I'm heading off for a glorious three days of snow odyssey! YAHOO! I'm just a little excited about getting to use my board again! :) Please pray for the trip though, I'm excited about the kids we have going, and I hope that they'll really be impacted this week.

And finally, in another 8 days, I'm getting baptized! I think my parents are even coming, which is a huge shocker! But that also makes me a little nervous, even though I'm not sure why. It'll be fine, I'm sure. I'm almost counting the hours now, I'm so excited!!

Mood: Happy
Music: "Sweet Home Alabama" Lynyrd Skynard

Friday, December 08, 2006

Happy Tears

March 05, 2005

Ephesians 3:20-21 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen!

Almost two years ago, I was clinging to this verse as I prepared to ask my parents if I could do the missions Bible study at church, go to Jericho, and start attending services on Sunday morning. Beside this verse in my Bible, I have written, "03-05-05, HE IS ABLE!!" And God has proven Himself to be able over and over again. But for many years, even before that March two years ago, I have struggled to balance honoring my parents with being effective and obedient in the church that God had placed me in. I wanted to be baptized in the worst kind of way. I had several long talks with Danny about baptism, and in my case, balancing that with honoring and respecting my parents. I didn't see any way to get baptized without being kicked out of my family and my home. Even though I continued to pray about it fervently, I had decided that I was going to have to wait until I graduated from high school and moved out.

Now fast-forward almost two years.

December 8, 2006

Psalm 37:3-6 Trust in the Lord, and do good, dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him. And He shall bring it to pass. He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday.

Tonight, I was sitting in my parent's bedroom, and we were reading a book for school. We had finished, and I was getting ready to leave, and Dad says, "Hold on a second, Carrie, we need to talk to you." I knew right away that it was something serious. He began to say that I was almost 18, and could pretty much do whatever I wanted to. He went on to say that he knew that I was happy in the baptist church, and although he was a little sad that I had rejected the catholic church, that if I wanted to become a member there, I had his and mom's blessing. He also said how proud they were of me that I had made such an effort in these last several years to honor them, and that they could see how much I had grown in that church.

For lack of a more eloquent phrase, I was so happy!! I hugged my parents and thanked them, and as soon as I walked out of the room, I broke down into happy tears. I am laughing and smiling and thanking God through the tears that are streaming down my face. Since all my talks with Danny about honoring my parents, it blessed me so much to hear them say that they had noticed, and appreciated that. They asked if I would please keep going to church with them while I live at home, and I'll do that. It's only an hour a week; a small price to pay!

I GET TO BE BAPTIZED!!! Just writing that made me start crying again; I am so overwhelmed at the faithfulness of God. I look back at the journey I've taken to get here. A journey that started way back in 2000, I think it was, when, through a strange set of circumstances, I realized that God had somewhere else for me to be besides the catholic church, and I recommitted my life to Him, and started trying to find that place. After two years of praying for a church, and a way to get there, since I knew my parents were bound to be opposed to it, God sent Beth. That started me going to youth group on Wednesday nights. And finally, youth group led to youth camp, eventually to Sundays and Sunday nights, to Jericho and working at kids camp. I know that this is where God wants me and where He wants to use me.

And with baptism, there are so many other cool things that come with that!!!! I can be a counselor at kids camp!!! I can work in VBS, I help with kids on Wednesday nights, I can teach Sunday school!!!

I can't wait to tell Danny! And Alise! And Beth! I'm writing this post on Friday night but I'm not going to post it until I talk to Alise, because I don't want her to read it before she hears it from me. God is so faithful!! Just when you think that all your prayers have been in vain, and that He has forgotten about you, He proves Himself to be so incredibly faithful.

Psalm 34:1-3 I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth. My soul shall make its boast in the Lord; the humble shall hear of it and be glad. Oh, magnify the Lord with me, and let us exalt His name together.

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Ryker Thomas



Isn't he a total stud?!

Name: Ryker Thomas
Born: Thursday, August 31, 1:10 pm
Weight: 9 pounds 13 ounces
Length: 21 3/4 inches

Monday, August 07, 2006

Kids Camp and College

Yay! I’m home again! (Wow, it seems like I start almost every post with that line, eh?) Children’s Camp was incredible. Twenty-two kids gave their lives to the Lord including two that I sort of knew pretty well, so that was awesome. At night we would have youth devotion time around the camp fire and then go lay on the dock and look at the stars. That was incredible because you can see THOUSANDS of stars and it is absolutely breathtaking. Most mornings I got up and had my quiet time by the lake, and that was awesome as well to watch the sunrise.

Being on the kitchen crew was REALLY hard work, but I had fun!! I got to work with some neat ladies, and it was certainly a good growing and learning experience. Someday though, I want to be a counselor.

Since I’ve been home, I’ve been trying to finalize my plans for the next school year, and that has been very frustrating. Right now I’m trying to get into an Intro to Business, PE, and a Chemistry class at CC in addition to the Spanish class I’m already registered for. I should be able to get an appointment with my advisor tomorrow to finalize things. I only have a month until school starts and my schedule becomes insane, so consequently I’m incredibly stressed. So I’m doing what I always do when I’m stressed. I’m cleaning/organizing my room in a systematic counter-clockwise direction.

Mood: Tired (of course)
Music: “Beverly Hills” by Weezer

Friday, July 28, 2006

And Then I Said...

It's nice to be home again! At this blessed moment I am enjoying my fuzzy sweats and favorite tank top while sitting on my couch. Yes, it's been wonderful being gone this summer, but right now I'm really glad to have my own bed and my own shower for two or three days. (-:

Youth camp was amazing. I think that I'm too tired to do a complete and coherent summary of it right now, but I'll hit a few of the main points.
- Fifteen kids got saved!!
- "Goin' to the Chapel" ... need I say more? (-:
- YWAM

God is so amazing. I've always struggled with knowing for sure if God is telling me to do something or not... like I always wonder if maybe it was just my weird, random brain making things up or if it's really God speaking to me. And then if things start going wrong while I'm trying to do what I think God has told me to do, then is that Satan trying to thwart God's plan or is that God trying to close doors because I made it all up in my head in the first place? But all of that to say that I am so positive that God is sending me to children's camp for a reason, that I am almost giddy with excitement. I wasn't even planning on going to kids camp until two weeks ago, and I struggled with saying for sure I was going or not because my parents were a little bit upset about it. But since I decided that I really thought that God wanted me to go, and told DeWayne, that yes, I was going for sure, God has just confirmed that decision in so many ways!! I know that God wants me to be at Clearlake next week. I'm so pumped!!

But right now I think that I'm going to crash right here from sheer exhastion, so I think I'll bid you adieu before my head hits the keyboard and deletes all of this. But I have to say one more thing before I go to bed... you guys (my friends) are some of the most awesome people on the face of this earth, and I am so blessed to have each and every one of you in my life. Thanks guys for being so incredible!!!!

Mood: Exhausted
Music: "Anticonformity" Krystal Meyers

DISCLAIMER: Yes, Alise, I know that my title is your phrase, but I really needed a title, and it was funny... please don't pummel me!! (-:

Monday, July 17, 2006

Well, Here Goes

Yeppers, here it goes. My big, long, crazy blog update!! (-: Wow, I can’t even remember what I last wrote about, so I guess I’ll start with Worldview.

Worldview Academy was AMAZING. I am completely convinced that every Christian teen on the planet needs to attend a WVA. I learned so much, that my brain is still spinning! Christianity just makes so much sense!! The speakers were awesome, quiet times were amazing, my small group was incredible, and Ultimate Frisbee was a blast, of course! The coolest thing in the whole week though was on Wednesday when they bussed us into Portland and we had an hour to witness to people in Pioneer Square. I was a little nervous when we started, but when we had to leave, I didn’t want to go. The hopelessness I saw in the people I talked to just broke my heart. Some of these people truly believed that there was no way they could know what happens after death, and that there was nothing they could do about it. I can’t even imagine how pointless life would seem if this was really all there was. I tried to tell them about the hope of Heaven that they could have in Jesus, but I don’t know how much of it got through. God promises though, that His Word will not return to Him void, so I know that many many seeds were planted in hearts that day. It was an amazing experience.

So I got home from WVA on Friday night, did my laundry, repacked, and left for Jericho on Saturday morning. Jericho was another truly amazing week. I’m having a harder time putting it into words though. The people at the churches in Independence/Monmouth were so kind and took such good care of us, that I was and still am blown away by their hospitality. Saturday we decorated for VBS at Independence First Baptist Church, Sunday we went to church, went swimming at Mary’s house (the children’s pastor at Monmouth Christian Church), went to a BBQ at another family’s house, and then VBS started on Monday. Monday went so smoothly, that all I could do was say, “Wow, God!” We had about 150 kids, I think, and everything that I saw went off without a hitch. I met some of the sweetest and most adorable kids I’ve ever seen last week. Man! *sniff*

Monday night though was hard. We went witnessing door-to-door, which I was hoping was going to be as great as what I’d done at Worldview, and I was excited about it, but it didn’t turn out so great for my group. A lot of different things happened that left me feeling like a complete failure. But the cool thing was that I got to spend like two hours with Alise, Kaeli, and Heidi talking and praying with them about what had happened. It was really cool. Yes, my team and I messed up, but God forgives, gives second chances and brings good out of even our mess ups! Thank goodness for that!

The rest of the week we did VBS, two block parties and a youth rally. At VBS 10-15 kids got saved (Alise, correct me on that number, I’m not exactly sure), and two more that were saved at the Independence block party. God was working for sure! We met some really cool people from different teams all around the NW, and that was fun too.

I’m sure I’m forgetting a lot of details here, so Alise, feel free to chime in… (-: But overall, it’s been an amazing two weeks of learning and growing in God and seeing Him work, and this summer isn’t even over yet! There’s still youth camp next week, and kids camp the week after that, and we’re possibly going to Basin City again in August. On that note, please pray that my parents will be ok with me going to kids camp and Basin City… they’re already getting tired of me being gone so much, so things are a little stressful, but it’s not too bad yet. Please pray that they stay cool with me trying to follow what God’s telling me to do.

Love you guys!

Mood: Peachy
Music: “The Way to Begin” Krystal Meyers

Monday, June 05, 2006

Let's Roll!

Okay, I'm PUMPED! My summer officially starts in 10 days, and I can't wait!! I just know that this summer is going to be even more amazing than last summer (if that's possible!) and I can't wait to get started! So, if I haven't done so already, I'm going to fill ya'll in on my summer plans...

In ten days I leave for Missouri (I've been working on my accent for the last week! It needed a little brushing up!) and although this trip has the potential to be incredibly boring (think sitting in a motel room for seven days watching tv), I'm just praying that God is going to do something cool. I have TONS of unsaved relatives there, so right now I'm just praying that God would really open up opportunities while I'm there to talk to them, and that I wouldn't miss those opportunities. But I'm also looking forward to the down time to catch up on my reading (The Deadiest Monster, The Greatest Among You, A Call to Die, His Chosen Bride, The Sacred Romance, The Power of a Praying Teen, The Ragamuffin Gospel, and The Bible). Wow, I think I'm going to be taking more books than clothes! Of course I haven't even started packing yet. Why would I do that? That's next Wednesday night's job. Wash all my clothes and throw them in a suitcase. It's what I'm going to be doing all summer, so I might as well get used to it!! But seriously, guys, please pray for my family back there. I have no idea what kind of opportunities I might have to witness to them, and I don't want to miss it.

So I get back from MO on Thursday the 22nd, then VBS in Toledo starts on Monday! I'll be running sound and learning the songs for the music department. It's a pretty brainless job, but it's going to be my only chance to learn ALL the VBS songs before Jericho! But I've always loved the VBS songs (yes, even when I was a 6th grader!) so I love doing the music.

The week after Toledo's VBS, I leave for a week of Worldview Academy. I'm pretty pumped about that too! From what I've heard from other people who have gone to WVA, it's the most amazing week ever. I'm glad that I'm getting to go BEFORE Jericho, because I think that I'm going to learn alot that I will be able to put into practice immediately!

I get home from WVA on Friday night (the 7th) and I leave for Jericho early Saturday morning! Please pray for good sleep and rest that night!! But just a head's up, I'll be sleeping all the way to Eugene! (-: I'm so excited for Jericho this year, that I can't even describe it. Last year in Tri-Cities was simply the most amazing experience of my life, but I feel so much more ready and prepared this year. I'm ready to be completely surrendered to God and to pour myself into the kids we're serving. This summer is NOT about me!! It's about being a servant.

After Jericho, I have a week at home to rest and get ready for youth camp. (Wow, I'm spending alot of time in Oregon this summer! I just realized that!) Youth camp is another thing that I'm totally stoked about! Last winter I was thinking that I might not go to camp this year, and I just wasn't too excited about it. But now that I'm able to play for the worship team and stuff, I know that God wants me to go. And that makes me excited, to know that I'm going to be where God wants to use me. My goal this year is, again, to NOT be focused on myself. I do that WAY to easily! I don't even know exactly why God wants me to go this year, I just want to be moldable in His hands, and that's good enough for me.

So that is possibly the end of my summer. Right now, it's looking like I'm NOT going to children's camp, but I'm still willing to go if that's what God wants. If it looks like God wants me to go, the problem is going to be my parents... not to mention the fact that I really really need to be applying for jobs as soon as I get back from youth camp. But I'm totally cool with going. Please pray about that too, cuz I'm still not sure!

So there you have it! My summer plans! I'm soooo excited to see what God's going to do this summer... and it's all so close now! By the way, random thought, A Call to Die is pretty much one of the most amazing books I've ever read! (Besides probably The Purpose Driven Life) Everyone should read it!!

Mood: Pumped!!
Music: "Lifesong" Casting Crowns